The other day I was with a few friends and something was said that has had me thinking all week.
I like clothes. I worked in ladies fashion for many years and my heart loved it! I say that to say, that I usually dress pretty cute. Not bragging, just that I do indeed like clothes and people often say they like my outfits.
So, the other day when I was having dinner with my friends, one of them said "that dress looks so cute on you, but I don't think I could wear it". That wasn't what struck me. What struck me was the response from one of the other gals. She said, "that is because Connie loves her body". Even though that caught me off guard, it took several days for me to come to what I want to share with you today.
We have all heard it, "You need to love your body just the way it is". But, do we? Do we really?
I think the message we have really gotten is that we need to say that we love what we see no matter what we really think when we look in the mirror. Is that honest, though?
I am gonna share a bit of my back story with you. I am trusting that I can be honest and transparent with you. My reason is to help. If you can relate with anything I share, it is well worth any embarrassment or shame on my part.
I grew up in the Los Angeles area in the late 60s, early 70s. I began experimenting with drugs at age 12. The experimenting only lasted a minute and I was quickly into full blown drug and alcohol abuse. I did drugs everyday and drank too much alcohol every weekend. So from the age of 12 until the day I found out that I was pregnant with my first daughter at age 24, I was drunk and/or high almost every day!
I know that a lot of people abuse drugs and alcohol for many more years than I did, but the years of abuse for me were very formidable years. During these years the body is still developing including bone building. Because of this many of my "systems" have been broken. In fact, when it was time for my children to be born, I would not go into labor. The doctor said my delivery system was broken from the drug abuse and doctors were shocked that my children were not effected at all.
When my friend said, "That's because Connie loves her body" I didn't know until many days after hearing her say that, that I really do. Most of you have seen me or pictures of me so you have to know that this is deeper than a mirror image.
My skin on my legs is beginning to sag a little when I walk, my bottom is a little droopy, my belly has skin that was stretched way out to accommodate very large babies, my breasts really need a bra, my arms have muscles if I try really hard otherwise the skin sags there too, and last but certainly not least, my face shows every smile line and every worry on my brow.
If I don't work hard, my body gets so weak so quickly that walking is difficult. 2 months ago or so I broke my toe, (again!) so I couldn't work out at all. This week I got back on track and I am feeling the muscles in my legs, owie!!
But just today it hit me!
I do love my body! Not what I see but what I know! With everything I have put my body through, it still shows up for me! It shows up with each breath I need. It shows up each time my eyes need to blink. It shows up with each heart beat. It shows up by pumping my blood. It showed up big time to create other lives! I have wonderful children because of this amazing body!
It is patient with me when I ignore it and don't do the right things, but the minute I give it the attention it needs and deserves, it responds! It responds by carrying me where I need to go. It responds by letting me hear music. It responds by letting me see. I am so blessed to have this body. Yes, this imperfect body! This imperfect body is there for me. It takes everything I do and everything I don't do and is still there for me.
So I guess I didn't really know it, but my friend is right, "Connie does love her body!" This body proves that God created us to live forever. We know that isn't possible, but the body's resilience is truly amazing.
So for many years I have functioned with a less than perfect body. But.......
I HAVE FUNCTIONED!!
Every ache and pain is a reminder of what I have done, but also of what God can do. I am grateful that even though I am weak and imperfect, I AM HERE!!
Can this help you look at your body a little differently? Maybe with a little more love? I hope so
Everyone deserves "the Good Inside," and, yes, "Purity is Possible."